As I mentioned in my last post, my daughter past away just before Christmas.
Even though I am in my 60s, this is my first experience with the death of a close family member. Naturally, I’ve lost other family members, but they didn’t live with me or even close by. My grandparents all passed when I was young, my dad died in his 80s but lived in a different state. My sister was killed by the medical system during COVID, but she’s too, lived several states away.
My daughter and her kids lived with my wife and myself and have for the past 13 years.
So this one is hitting…hard. I have never experienced the sudden tears at the most bizarre moments. Listening to music, reading something online, just anything.
But for me, the worst part is the overwhelming fatigue. I simply have no energy for anything. It’s literally all I can do to get up and going in the morning. Once I get going, I’m okay. But getting there is way harder than anything I’ve ever experienced.
Someone please tell me this will pass.
Please.
Scott's Ramblings 
I am so sorry for your loss! Grief is a terrible but necessary thing to help us deal with loss. I came very close to losing my daughter from Leukemia when she was 4 years old. Even though it was 24 years ago, I can vividly remember sitting by her bed in the hospital wondering if she would survive. Eight years ago, I lost both of my parents within just a few months of each other. I was very close to them, so it was a double tragedy. I can’t tell you that it gets any easier. The emotions lessen over time, but then something will trigger a memory and they come flooding back. I heard someone compare grief to a wave. Some days it’s manageable, and you can float on top of it. Other days, it’s a tsunami and you feel like you’re drowning! I have found comfort in the arms of Jesus. Praying that you will find comfort and peace.
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